I think I’m suffering from stress

So within the last two months my team at work has gone from three to one. Who’s the one? Yup, me. I am now doing three people’s job roles and there’s only one of me and I come with two hands and one brain. It was the day I was dreading to be left all alone and now I think I’m suffering from stress because of it. The funny thing is that I only started in January and now I am looking after Marketing (with no pay rise).

My colleague left nearly two weeks ago and she dealt with the social media and the press releases. Yes this is easy to do, I know that but I’m responsible for so much more and after what has happened today, I would just like to walk out. Obviously I can’t because I need a job and marketing jobs don’t come up often where I live.

I love what I do, I feel I have developed many skills and still have a lot to learn but handling all of this at 24 on my own is an absolute nightmare. Last Friday I had a small nosebleed at work – 100% think it is stress related. My moods are any how, I have good days and today I have had a bad day hence why I am reflecting on life. Headaches, dizzy spells, teary eyes, severe tiredness, can’t talk about work without getting upset – is this even normal?

We are currently recruiting for someone to come and help me but it could take up to two months. TWO MONTHS?! Who waits that long, I certainly can’t handle that. My meeting with the MD went well yesterday as I felt positive and on top of things but when you’re the only one in the Marketing Department, you are the one getting bombarded with emails and requests. Yay for me!

I think what bothers me is I don’t have someone to say ‘oh would you mind dealing with this please?’ No-one to fob anything off to or answer the phone whilst you’re trying to do something. I have such an array of things to do and I like making lists, ticking off the things I have done and then adding more. Those things are not a problem for me, I go into major panic mode when all of a sudden everything goes wrong and someone wants you here, there and then somewhere else.

If only we were able to pause time and make the surroundings just stop for a minute. If anyone is called Bernard and you have a watch, hit me up please.  

Slacking on the bloggers front

I never thought I would say that I would flop at blogging but recently I have. So many things have happened in the last two months it has been difficult to keep on top of things. It might be time to sort my shit out and plan what I’m going to write about for a change, I’m kinda a last minute person.

Keep an eye out on what will be featured on here soon 🙂

It is time to start taking things seriously

I have always struggled to lose weight for many reasons. One I’m on the contraceptive pill and I think that plays a big part in it, two I just don’t enjoy cooking and experimenting with food and three my joints. It is difficult when you live at home with your family and they don’t want to eat what you’re eating which means you’re cooking two separate meals – I haven’t got time or money for that.

We recently booked a holiday to Bulgaria in September and I definitely want to shift some timber for this. I also came across a challenge with Cancer Research in September as well and I want to do it. Whilst I am writing this I’m watching the London Marathon and these people taking part are inspirational, it has really put a perspective that I can also take on a challenge.

Losing 3lbs this week has made me realise I can actually do this and I will lose weight this time. I say it all of the time but this time I am 100% serious.

Watch this space 😀

A Street Cat Named Bob Book Review

I hadn’t come across this book until the film was released in cinemas and I didn’t C8aWmPOXYAA3L2A.jpg-largeget chance to go and see it. I often do a charity shop book raid once a month to see what little gems I can pick up and this book was one of them. This title made me curious so I had to buy it.

The Goodreads and Amazon reviews for this book are a little hit and miss due to the copy and people commenting on its repetition. Just shut up. How can you expect someone who has had a difficult life since their teenage years to be an expert writer. That’s it, you’ve realised that it is quite unlikely.

I wasn’t sure what to expect and had no idea what the book was going to be about but I got into it straight away. Yes I do judge the way things are written but with this book I didn’t, I carried on and ignored what errors I’d just read. The way James introduced himself and his new best friend Bob was great, it was the perfect way to start a story.

It was very important for James to highlight how the homeless and vulnerable have to live on a daily basis. I have never been in this position but from walking the streets of London and seeing people on the street desperate for food, money and a home is heartbreaking. This book gives you a very good insight into that lifestyle. I felt happy when James came across Bob, I knew things would work out for them in the end! They are such an inspiring pair that go through a hell of a lot together but still walk around with smiles on their faces.

When James wrote about taking on the role as a Big Issue vendor – my way of thinking changed forever. Firstly, I was shocked. I have never known anything about the Big Issue Magazine but knowing its how the homeless and vulnerable get back on their feet will make me think twice about saying no when walking past. The vendors have to buy their magazines in order to make money – this made me sad.

I think everyone should give this book a read. After reading this I really do feel differently towards choosing to ignore those that are trying to change their lives.

 

The endless pressure when in a relationship

So I have been with the other half for nearly four years but he’s been in and out of my life for 10. People often have this expectation that we need to rush into things as we’ve been together for so long but we’re quite happy as we are. We both have no responsibilities and we can enjoy our own space and pretty much do whatever we want, whenever we want.

We’ve found out fairly recently that we’re going to be an auntie and uncle – YAY! Super happy about that and can’t wait to meet him. We were at a party the other day and once it was announced people instantly came up to us and said ‘You two are next, when will it happen?’ My response was it’ll happen in our own time. We get this all of the time and I really don’t know what the rush is? Someone please tell me?

I am not sure why but when you’re in a relationship there is so much pressure to quickly get engaged, move in and have a family. For me, I want to be able to enjoy what selfish time I have, do random things together and be able to have an argument without it affecting our household or family life.

Maybe I’m too laid back but to be honest I am not ready for that, its a huge life change and we’re both on the same wave length. I want to be sure that once I’ve made this step, it is the right one and I don’t want to turn back. I doubt I will want to turn back because I love the guy but people do struggle to adjust to change and I am one of them.

Who else has this to deal with as I can’t be the only one?!

The Wedding Singer Musical – The Curve

When I first saw that The Wedding Singer Musical was touring, I didn’t know what to think. Will it be as good as the movie? Will they pull the characters off? What songs are they going to sing? So I asked for tickets for Christmas – thanks dad!

My mum and I went on the last showing at The Curve, Leicester on Saturday 18th February and it was sold out. I won’t give too many spoilers away because the cast are still touring around the UK.

At first I can’t say I was enjoying it because I was constantly comparing it to the film as it is one of my favourite films. To be honest the start was quite slow and I had my fingers crossed that it wouldn’t be like this the whole way through. Well it definitely wasn’t!!!

I thought the acting and singing was incredible. The notes were pitch perfect and the songs made you clap along which is what going to a musical is all about. However, I expected a few more solos from Ray Quinn and I was sad he wasn’t singing as much (big fan). One HUGE disappoint for me was George didn’t sing ‘Do you really want to hurt me?’ – WHY NOT?! Why was this not key, everyone knows the scene and I was waiting for it throughout the whole performance.

Now I’d never heard of Cassie Compton but what a beautiful voice, she is very very talented. Her portrayal of Julia was fantastic, very ditsy but it was cute and she researched and observed her character – I could tell. Robbie Hart and Holly were also bloody brilliant. I can’t fault the cast at all, they work so well together.

My two favourite characters were George (of course) played by Samuel Holmes and Grandma Rosie, played by Ruth Madoc. They had a scene together that had me in stitches, it added a great twist to the show! I can’t say too much because this scene was so unexpected and I don’t want to ruin it for anyone else.

If this musical is in your area please do go and see it, support these upcoming actors / actresses. Just to pre warn you, you won’t be able to sing along to many of the songs!

xafmbkgi

When things get a little hectic

For the last month my life has been full of ups and downs but I am trying to focus on the ups. My blog has been full of negativity recently but this is because this is the only place I express my feelings. Now I need to stop moaning, get on with it and smile! I have so many things planned so far for this year and they’re quite exciting.

I will be writing a review on a musical today so watch out for that.